Did I Write This Week?
A little bit. A very little bit. I was really hoping to have had time to knock out another part (only 2 parts left of my zombie nonsense, should be putting out the conclusion very soon) this past week, it just didn’t materialize. I basically reviewed a part and made some edits, and have nothing else to show for it.
Why Not?
Self-motivation is hard man. I literally watched David Blaine perform some card tricks on Jimmy Fallon instead of writing anything. I don’t even like David Blaine. I mean, they’re good card tricks but come on now, was that a good use of my time?
You know what I don’t like? I hate feeling guilty for not writing. But then again, if I didn’t feel guilty I would probably never be able to shame myself into sitting down and writing. It’s a tricky balance, right? I really hate how often a shitty feeling in my stomach is what actually gets me to sit down and force myself to write.
Through the course of working on this website I would say that I’ve added a measurable amount of stress and output based stress to my life. I get worked up about whether or not we’ll have a podcast every week (incidentally, every now and then I do the math and basically for the last 4 years 9to5.cc has put up a podcast week, that’s crazy). I stress about finding time to write creatively. I stress out about forcing myself to write this blog once a week. I stress out about getting together to write the comics. Is it even worth it?
I mean, I don’t kid myself. I know that not many people will read or enjoy most of what I do, so why bother? ↓ Read the rest of this entry…